This Year has been anything but boring and in-turn I have had to learn some key lessons to stay somewhat afloat.
1. Be your own savior… sometimes
In this year of incredible highs and horrible lows, I have realized that while the people around you will try to help and be there, sometimes the only one that can save you is yourself. I have unfortunately had many run-ins with people who play for my failure, (professionally and personally) and at some point this year, it really isolated me.
My anxiety was at an all time high and I was having heavy depressive episodes that would last for days.
My parents tried to help.
My friends tried to help.
It wasn’t until I decided that while I was still very upset with the way that I was being treated, instead of wallowing in my bedroom crying and watching Safe Haven, I was going to show them that I was going to succeed in spite of them, in spite of everybody that doubted me or didn’t believe in me.
This is not to say that I don’t have my bad days where I second guess myself or I let their judgements get into my head, but what can I say… I’m a work in progress.
2. Believe in your passions
I love to write. I have since I found the first book that I ever fell in love with when I was a preteen. I would write these twisting and turning tales that would zip through my overactive imagination down through my body and onto the paper that was slightly crumpled from motion of it all.
But then I would stop.
I would hesitate.
And it would never see the light of day.
It took me until my Junior year in university to decide to take the leap and have somebody else read what I had written. Turned out that was all I really needed.
A small leap of faith.
Now I’m the Editor-In-Chief of my own student newspaper, a soon to be intern at Cleveland magazine, and here talking to you.
I have written journalistic pieces that I will always be proud of, co-written a 6,000 word feature that has been called the best college journalism by one of the journalism professors at my university that I highly respect and admire.
I have finally found my voice and I am never giving it up.
Believing in your passions give them life.
Take the leap, you never know where you might land.
3. Don’t be your own worst critic
I am extremely hard on myself. I am a perfectionist that sees the flaws in all of my work. This means that I can do some very intricate work but also means that I can never truly be happy with my accomplishments.
Trust me, I’m working on it.
With all the critics around me judging my every move, I’m trying to take a step back and look at the positives instead of the negatives. While others complain about the one thing I missed, I will think of the things that I liked.
We all have critics in our life, I’ve just decided to try to not be one of them.
4. Don’t be the sidekick in your own life
This year has taught me that while life demands to be lived, it is up to you to decide how.
So, take the plunge.
Take the job out-of-state.
climb the mountain.
Tryout for the play.
Kiss the boy… or girl.
Shave your head.
Do something stupid.
Don’t settle for contentment.
Live a life full of memories.
Live a life that makes you smile, and cry and yell and… live.
5. Don’t let the haters get you down
Some people are driven on jealously, so live your best life and give them something to be jealous of.